The Week That was

*LAST SEMESTER* boo hoo etc. Exams were okayish as always. 4 subjects this time instead of the usual 5 and a 60 mark project. Padhna kisne hai yaar.I'll look forward to Security Analysis though. Or at least i hope i will. The week wasn't too busy as there were hardly any proper classes save the usual introductions to the subject etc. I'm slowly starting to feel detached from college. I see all these bubbly freshers practicing their choreo/streetplay etc and i feel old man !..haha..I mean I owned this place not too long ago but its starting to feel like I'm just a member of the family.Not that i don't own it now but woh seniority wali baat ho jaati hai yaar.Go figure.

CCL came in as a breath of fresh air. For those not in the know, CCL or CBS Cricket League is a 6 over 6 member a side cricket tourney which a group of us started last year and it has now become a tradition I can look back proudly upon. We had both our 1st round group robin matches and we're through to the pre-quarters. Raje single-handedly decimated the opposition in the first match scoring a brisk 29 and we posted a stiff target of 76, winning easily by around 40 or so runs. I picked up 2 wickets so I was glad with my showing as well. The second match(today) was where we screwed up . Chasing a gettable 56 , we were 21 for no loss after 1.3 overs, and looked all set before a mini collapse. The match went down to the wire and we ended up losing by 1 run but thankfully our comfortable net run rate(NRR) from the previous match meant we went through. Looking back, it was a tactical error on my part to bowl the 1st over and gave too many runs early on before Cheap and raje tightened up proceedings. Should've also not tampered with the opening line up.Sending choudhary up the order also proved costly. Koi ni. You win some, you dim sum. It was a good wake up call and it's best we don't get too complacent as we move to the knock out stages.

Did i tell you i read The Kite Runner during the course of the exams. That's what i do; read a novel during and only during exam time.Weird as how I keep regretting this wasteful expenditure of time and still keep doing it semester after semester. Good book though. Really good book. *Calls out*Hitchhiker's omnibus. You're NEXT. *Sounds of lightning*


Sad jokes apart, saw this play on saturday at the IHC called Chaos Theory about two college professors who "experience a lifetime together without expressing their real emotions".Aptly put. Now i don't generally see a lot of plays ( can't remember the last one I saw so I'm presuming it was ages ago) but I can tell you this - I shall be watching many more in the times to come after seeing what I saw on saturday. Exceptional acting apart, the play was crisp, engaging and not over the top(meaning upar se nikal jaayega) as i would've imagined plays would be. Or maybe i had it all wrong in my head in the first place but our(me, aadhar) idea of watching plays paid off, although it was I who pointed out this particular play(I like to take credit for everything good that happens to anyone anywhere). Bappi also came along but I don't know if he enjoyed it as much as i did, even though he did enjoy it. The tickets should've been cheaper though. 300 bucks is a bit sexpensive for college going wannabe regular play watchers man. Also, I banged into bajaj, yaksee, pragyah, n tmyta so I was pleasantly surprised. Talking of IHC, I really like the all american diner. it has a laidback charm which gets me hook, line and sinker.

I banged into tmyta again the next day in khan market. She's probably stalking me, which is good.Caught up with dY and Karn which is always fun. I'm starting to get tired of the whole big chill, khan chacha routine a bit though (finally!)..Khair, yesterday we had kababs at Saleem coz khan chacha was closed due to a family wedding(or so said the notice outside). Kakori is always bliss though chicken isn't half bad either. So isn't penne with vodka, mud pie and our dear friend, the belgian chocolate shake. Now the reason i don't get fat : not because of some hand-me-down family digestive churan (powder) or some shit. it's simple. i burn it.

DVD-rips i saw over this past week - Rock On(loved it), little miss sunshine (loved it), pineapple express (good fun).

Oh, I still need a job, so if you can hook me up somewhere, I shall bestow upon you massive brownie points.

Before we end, my lyrics for the day come from Priscilla Ahn's Find My Way Back Home. If i were you I'd be downloading it right now. Haha no really. You'll know why once you hear it.

Don't you go,
Away, I know,
Without your love,
I'll never find my way back home

'Cause you and me,
So happily,
Make all our dreams of make believe reality

La la la La la la La la la la la

Troubles, never find us there
Oh, bubbles, float through the air,
Float through the air
Float through the air air air air

La la la La la la La la la la la

So don't you go,
Away, I know,
Without your love,
I'll never find my way back home,
I'll never find my way back home,
No, no,
I'll never find my way back home,
No, no,
I'll never find my way back home


Peace and Love
you know who

Business Time

P.S. wrote this a week back, posting now.I know a post script comes in after the piece but this is how i do.Also i've purposely deleted some stuff from the 8th paragraph which i'll update later. I've already written it, but now is not the right time.

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I hate this time. I'm not appearing for any MBA entrances unlike everyone else, i don't have a job yet and I have no clue what i want to do post college(meaning what sort of work/advertising/consulting/law/sit around and study for MBA/sit around and do nothing/baah), life, Relationships baaaaabaaaa(the way Rekha shouts in Khoon Bhari Maang. Now, Why do i know this). The other day i was watching a movie(Fashion, very has-been, don't watch it.music is not bad though) and i felt i shouldn't be having fun because I'm not supposed to. We ended up doing a lot of crazy stuff inside but on the way back home, that sinking feeling still hit me. Why is everything not the same. I'm going to be 20 soon. Nice, now I'm old too.Perfect.

The *biggest* problem with me is I leave everything to the last moment possible and many a times don't do what is right/what should ideally have been done/ 'The right thing at the right time'/you get the picture. And i take everything and everyone for granted.And i'm not just talking about the above paragraph here.Everything.Everywhere.Everytime.Because in my bubble, everything runs the way i want it to.And it had worked fine for me *until now*.

Man, sometimes i hate myself. At other times, i make do with what I have, because I am all I've got.Haha no, I don't really feel the last line. I just wrote it since it sounded witty. But coming back, as Gandhi said, 'be the change you wish to see in the world'. So lately, instead of cribbing I've started making amends for previous foolish mistakes. Not because Gandhi told me to, but since I really feel it is high time i did. I could write gaffes but, in all honesty, i've been foolish. Let's just hope undo most of my follies and I have a happy story at the end of the tunnel. Fk that. If it isn't happy, its not the end.

I heard Mikey, my colony friend who is away to study's dog, died recently. and I really felt bad. He had been a nice fellow(mikey) and after seeing the way i reacted to the news, i wondered what it had been like had my own dog died(if i did have a dog i.e.). I get too attached, even if i don't show it. But in the same vein, it is our emotions that make us human. And i like it this way.

CCL, the college cricket tourney is around the corner(so are exams) and lets hope my team has fun. Coming to the me and shera in a team debate, Ek Mayaan mein do talwaar nahi reh sakti !hehe.We have taken friends over proven performers so lets hope the gamble pays off.Winning comes in later, but the most important thing is that we enjoy while we're at it. Everything else will follow suit.

Also, while we're at it, i think of aadhar and how i couldn't take him in my team because of his heart condition. Dude, i love you(in a non-gay manner as you already know) even if i don't always say it. And i'm not just talking about the cricket team here, I mean generally.Going out and telling people(guys) that you love them doesn't sound right in my head, maybe because it isn't a guy thing. Not being sexist here, just a thought. But hey, i just did.But i'm not going to do that too often. Nah. VERY Weird.

What is it with AI. She acts so ajeeb i don't even know i should be doing anything at all.Why do you feel me up ! I barely know you !Man, girls are weird. Guys are still monosyllabic ogres who want food, sex and sleep, though not necessarily in that order. Girls are way too complexer(wow. a new word). They have so many layers to them one(guys) can barely imagine. And i speak from experience. Though this one has been totally weird.

Talking of weird, why do i get weird when it has to do with S. WHY? Its like i become a totally different weird shy awkward person and she's probably thinking I'm a goner. (..) C’mon I don't even know her that well. (..) talking to her (..).But deep down (..) it is totally my fault i screwed everything up. Why do i always wake up so late? Its like a sudden moment of epiphany and voila now i realise everything..Heck if i can go o(..) 10 years(?)(..)At least I won't regret it later.(..) Is it too late? Will this become a shitty story I'll tell my grand kids(?!) (..)The least i can do is to tell (..)But the problem is, by not doing something I can 1) still have the hope in my head that there is still a possi(..) and 2)i dont like the idea of (..) and everything being over(..)I'd rather have her as a (..)friend( can i say friend?)than not at all. It does'nt feel right. I was probably not afraid of the outcome in my previous '(..)'so i went ahead and did as i thought. but this time its different.Man, i have my exams coming up i should really be studying.Aargh.I dont even know where this is headed so I'll stop at that.

Oh the newsletter came out today. Not bad at all. I was mighty proud, what with the whole editors column et all.. haha yea. I'm glad i took to writing. I lowe it. People love it. And i love the love too. it took some effort planning out the whole newsletter though. Paru, if you're reading this you're the best. I wonder what it'd be without your designing 'expertise' :)

Coming to humour then. The thing with humour is, it disarms people, makes them trust you and gives them the illusion they've known you longer than they actually have. It is a win win situation! (See !). Its not that I am funny dhawan 24/7. It is more like 8/7.But i like to keep things easy as and when I can. Am i afraid to show the serious side of me to everyone? Or am i using humour as a defence mechanism? What am i, Chandler?! Let us leave that to your imagination.Ah well, another day another time.

I'll update this later. I should really sleep now.and i wrote this directly into the window so excuse the grammatical errors. 

rgds,

dh

Thoughts

I shall keep posting and updating this blog entry(?) whenever i find a fun quote in a cheap, patronizing sort of way. And i when i have enough, I don't know what i'll do with them.But hey, the fun lies in the journey and not the end.

if you can't give something from the heart, the next best thing is to give something from the crotch.

Don't let your dignity get in the way of your online prostitution

Have fun, it's your life and it's your body: cheapen it!

having children when you're that stupid is child abuse

Yeah, you're a child at heart, just as soon as children start going to work every day to rot in a cubicle for a meager pay check so they can drink their troubles away in a shitty bar for the rest of their lives.

Looking for a safe stance on abortion? Me neither.

Ever notice how people ask you what sign you are and always say "I knew it" only after you tell them which one? That's because they're full of shit.

Square Root of 3

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

A three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

Has quietly come waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
Form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
And with the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become ungood
And love for me, has been renewed

i dont like to share food

i just don't. Every time someone tries to put their folk/spoon/hand in my plate to nibble on what rests in it, i just don't like it. You have your own food to eat dipshit, why can't you fucking eat that.don't try to venture into my territory. Don't.

Not that i have an issue with someone or something, it's just that i don't like to share food. Let me eat in peace; talk to me/Share a joke etc while eating with me but at least eat your own food !

Yehp. glad that's out of my system.
exams in a week and i still have to start studying
dh

p.s.financial crunch. half way through the month and all my pocket money is already gone.:D. how that happened, i have scant idea. sub-prime loan lena padega. bad joke.

updates

I've been watching a lot of movies lately. I mean i saw Singh is Kinng, Kismet Konnection (dont ask me why), Jaane Tu and Bachna Ae Haseeno over the past few weekends. Rock on and Wall-e are due.Sadly i haven't seen Dark Knight yet (!) primarily since it isn't playing anywhere near my place and all the halls screening it near college are showing the Hindi dubbed version. So yeah.

I went with some college ppl to Karim's today. Either the place is overhyped or we went on a bad day. Not that the food was bad.But not as good as it is probably made out to be. The Sheermal (thick sweet roti made of flour, milk, butter etc) was the saving grace. Looking at the ingredients it had to be ! and rich.

Have a soccer match tomorrow. Not just any soccer match. If we lose, we're out of the tournament so it's pretty much do or die. Compare that with our thumping football league victory last year and you realise how much we miss Anant, Angad and Jaideep. Talking of Jaideep, he broke his shin in the finals last year trying to add to his 2 goal tally. I still remember the cracking sound. Seriously.

Moving on lets not talk about placements, Mba etc.

Collegehumor. Check out their videos on youtube. Good stuff. Amir, a guy who features on many of their videos reminds me of me.
p.s. I've been spending some quality time on youtube. It is such a good feeling not being busy for a while.

Had an ed board meeting today. Did i tell you i became editor. Yes, thank you. My point was, guiding all the juniors about their stuff to do was cool at a certain level but it also made me feel old. urgh. wtf im just 19 ! Can i not stay this old forever. 18 was the best actually but this too, shall do.

gotta go.more later.
Peace and love.
dh

Dil Dil

Hey

Let's just say I haven't been regular with the blog.

http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=sAQltxqCluQ

The song is called Dil Dil Pakistan by Vital Signs, arguably the biggest song ever by the biggest Pakistani band in the 90's. The song became an anthem then, and is still an anthem now. Lead by singer Junaid Jamshed and influential director - producer Shoaib Mansoor (ShoMan), the band, the song, Junaid and ShoMan took Pakistan by storm.

Now why is stumbled upon this song is another question. I recently saw Khuda Kay Liye the first proper mainstream movie to come out of Pakistan in 3 decades and a movie I would recommend to every Indian. Not because its breakthrough cinema or anything but because it gives a realistic picture of what Pakistanis and Muslims go through every day for no fault of theirs.Also since it gives us a chance to hear their side of the story. As the saying goes, all(alright most) terrorists are Muslims but not all Muslims are terrorists.


It is essentially the story of two musician brothers; the elder one goes to the U.S. to pursue music while the younger one gets influenced by Fundamentalist Islamists , quits music and joins them + and how situations change post 9/11. There's another sub plot with their cousin sister from England who is forcefully married in Pakistan. That along with Muslim stereotypes being dealt with, form the gist of the movie.The movie is directed by Shoaib Mansoor(ShoMan, as he calls himself and as mentioned earlier) and being the man he is, the movie was highly anticipated and well, worth the hype.

Deviating from the topic a little, Pakistan doesnot really have a lot of icons (most coming out of cricket and music) so the few icons they do have ( like ShoMan, Shahid Afridi, Junaid Jamshed, Ali Zafar, Atif Aslam etc) get ALOT of hype. Also, has anyone noticed how good looking Pakistani people are?

Coming back, the younger brother's character in the movie is loosely based on Junaid Jamshed (ShoMan and JJ were more than brothers before JJ took the Islam U-turn. Also JJ was the Micheal Jackson of the time in Pakistan so his quitting the music scene came as a huge shock to the Pakistani people). Which also explains why the movie got even more hype, since this was ShoMan's way of telling his side of the story and how he felt about the whole JJ islam episode.

Without going too much into the story, the movie's direction is consistently good, the performances are tight, and the background score is very good. So is Naseer-uddin Shah 's scene stealing cameo at the end. Considering this movie was shot on a shoestring budget, it's a delight to watch.(3.5/5). And if you're cheap and can't buy the DVD, it's also available on youtube(though the print pretty much sucks)

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Talking of Pakistan, my ancestral home is in Peshawar and I really wish I could go see it in this lifetime. Also, Pakistanis are generally a warm, friendly and genuine people and it is just a few extremists who use the garb of Jihad to mislead young impressionable minds and bring both Islam and Pakistan a bad name.

Peace

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