Jai ho

Got a job on friday. 2 actually, and in the shortlist for a third so life is good and god is kind.
Here's hoping for a few years of fun with them iit iim people at work before my masters. The interview went pretty awesome and they offered me a job right then and there. I felt good, simply because i was my natural self and it was great that they accepted me that way. Went for a little dinner with the family so it's all good.

Also got an awesome pair of shoes. It was worth the whole looking around i guess. If you demand and settle for nothing but the best, you get the best eh? Also got more clothes that i don't need and a guitar which i shall now attempt to strum away to glory. I know it's too late but better late than never right?

Talking of clothes, i love blazers->

On a different note, Naomi Campbell was on TV the other day. Nothing special; i just find her name funny. It's I Moan backwards.

Went to the msosa play then. It sucked so hard we were totally blown(metaphorically) by the interval and hence didnot return. I only wonder if Dy and Karn will ever go for a play with me after i made them come all the way for this shit. Don't get me wrong, the acting wasn't bad. In fact, it was actually quite good. All the play lacked was a script.And humour, seeing as it was meant to be a comedy. We were only waiting for Shivain's part but we had waited enough before we had had enough.
I was walking with R a couple of days back(saturday) when it happened.Let's just say we(rather, I) were(was) about to get beaten up by 7 mad gujjars for no apparent reason.Sometimes we search for one thing but discover quite another. Even though I didn't find the mystery girl or figure out the elusive point of it all or other such things of consequence, i did find out something very important about myself... I'm awesome. Haha as you've probably guessed the day was saved, thanks to yours truly. But more than unprecented acts of bravery and common sense, what's significant is it brought us together in some inexplicable way.

Saw slumdog. 

It should get the oscar. Not because it's the best film in contention or whatever, (hell, the wrestler is not even nominated) but simply because it gets the message of hope and faith conquering all

 across so it's really the right thing at the right time and my guess is the academy would love tha

t. Not taking anything away from the movie though. It was quite a ride even though it had its flaws, but is any movie perfect? Sometimes you have to just enjoy it for what 

it is and not nit pick. And i noticed them because there were simply too many expectations from the movie. Sometimes the baggage works, sometimes it doesn't. Like i remember i saw Jab We Met with zilch expectations and came out smiling. It's like the real world actually. If you don't expect too much, you end up getting overwhelmed. On the flipside, if you expect too much, you almost always end up grumpy. It boils down to you.

Talking of oscar buzz, Heath Ledger should get best supporting actor, wall-e should get best animated feature, sean penn should get best actor(milk, although in all fairness Mickey Rourke deserves it for the wrestler),kate winslet should get best actress(the reader), penelope->best supporting actress n waltz with bashir should get best foreign film. Lets see how right or wrong i end up being.oh and Slumdog gets the big 2 (movie, director)+rahman gets both.

My lyrics for today come from a cheesy Punjabi track that i grew up listening and is the theme song of my life.

Haha, just kidding. Love Supreme - Robbie Williams, (Sing When You're Winning)

Oh it seemed forever stopped today 
All the lonely hearts in London 
Caught a plane and flew away 
And all the best women are married 
All the handsome men are gay 
You feel deprived 

Yeah are you questioning your size? 
Is there a tumour in your humour, 
Are there bags under your eyes? 
Do you leave dents where you sit, 
Are you getting on a bit? 
Will you survive 
You must survive 

When there's no love in town 
This new century keeps bringing you down 
All the places you have been 
Trying to find a love supreme 
A love supreme 

Oh what are you really looking for? 
Another partner in your life to 
abuse and to adore? 
Is it lovey dovey stuff, 
Do you need a bit of rough? 
Get on your knees 

Yeah turn down the love songs that you hear 
'Cause you can't avoid the sentiment 
That echoes in your ear 
Saying love will stop the pain 
Saying love will kill the fear 
Do you believe 
You must believe 
When there's no love in town 
This new century keeps bringing you down 
All the places you have been 
Trying to find a love supreme 
A love supreme 

I spy with my little eye 
Something beginning with (ah) 
Got my back up 
And now she's screaming 
So I've got to turn the track up 
Sit back and watch the royalties stack up 
I know this girl she likes to switch teams 
And I'm a fiend but I'm living for a love supreme 

When there's no love in town 
This new century keeps bringing you down 
All the places you have been 
Trying to find a love supreme 
A love supreme 

Come and live a love supreme 
Don't let it get you down 
Everybody lives for love 

Come and live a love supreme 
Don't let it get you down 
Everybody lives for love 

--

Dh1

p.s. if you love me, you may gift me Thierry Mugler's A*Men or Issey Miyake's Pour Homme. Either will do.

the reason

i treated the guys to booze and food on friday, a kind of soft mini bday celebration(which still cost a lot by the way) which presents me with a peculiar problem. it still leaves about 9 ppl that i still need to treat for which i need a) a plan, b) money. also sristay-vasu have already given me bday gifts so more guilt pangs coz i'm yet to treat em :l . i dropped the original everyone coming together at my place/lodhi picnic idea coz i just didn't feel like it. plus i have individual equations with a certain ppl that i don't want to mix up. plus i didn't want to have a huge celebration sort; just didn't feel upto it. plus with the whole gloom coz of the insecurity, uncertainty around etc it somehow didn't feel right. hence, adequate rationale.

i want to talk about Dev D(not the movie) and make it all serious and full of substance, but i won't. i'm sleepy right now so only when i'm fully awake.

oh i'm twenty. and i feel old. and you know what sucks? i can't go to bangalore for the iim fest coz i have the MIB exam on the same date. i'm not even serious about the exam anyway. why must it always have to happen to me. this was probably the last shot i had at going to an outside fest but thanks to sheer bad luck(again), it is another missed oppurtunity. i guess i'll have to live with the regret of not going to a single outside fest, an unreasonable blotch on an otherwise spotless college life. what the fuck right. but in the same train of thought, it doesn't seem to affect me as much as i think it should've, so i guess i'm getting detached from college already.but it still does affect me.a lot.

got a haircut yesterday. it's short enough to not need a comb. not that i comb my hair anyway, but i won't need to play around with my fingers for the next two weeks at least.

Not thinking about my goals too much. simply because then they end becoming things you talk about and not things that you actually do.

movies seen - juno (neat,reminds me of mia for some reason), death proof (fun, underrated), planet terror(grotesque + wry+intentionally daft=i like),departed(awe-fucking-some, or maybe i'm biased), burn after reading (silly, though i don't like brad pitt dying uselessly. plus the female gym instructor woman gets overbearing after a while)

read - the first of 5 hitchhiker titles, after much procrastination. review post completion.for now, suffice to say it is my sort of humour.

my lyrics for today come from Hoobastank, one hit wonders if you will, 's one hit - the reason. i still love it the way i loved it when i heard it about 4 years or so ago. and i'm still not the perfect person.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all awayAnd be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for meTo change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I doAnd the reason is you 

yours truly

dh1

p.s. i need to buy new shoes since the green ones are coming apart. i was hoping

 i'd find footwear not entirely unlike the converse shoes of yore,in leather.Even the 

alexander mcqueen pumas would do.But alas. And all the other shoes i've seen don't seem to hit the spot.Itna selective bhi nai hona cheeye. also, got free passes for the msosa play from southie boy so should

 probably be checking that out/selling the tickets at a profit.Isse kehte hain win-win. 

Death

i was in c.p. on the 31st circa 8pm, about to leave for home to go back and change and leave again for the night. Namn called up and i assumed i might've crossed him on my way back to the inner circle and so he wants to say hey. So he asks me where i am and once i tell him about my whereabouts, he goes "I'm presuming you haven't heard what has happened." And i'm thinking fuck no. not another bomb in the city. (side note-the security was beefed up around c.p.and when i say beefed up i mean rapid action force cars, about 50 cops with guns moving around the inner circle etc plus the entry of cars banned after 7 and loads of security checks. but then again, this is standard practice in major markets on new year's eve and other such important days so i wasn't perturbed) Turns out it was worse. tarus had been in a fatal car accident in pune 2 hours back. tyre burst, pune expressway, car turns turtle,3 people dead on the spot. including tarus.numb.

the thing is, you read news items like these often but not for a moment do you think something like this could happen to someone you know, much rarely someone you know and like. aah, kids these days. high speed. too bad. next page.

These things never happen to people around us right. right?

Tarus was a genuinely cool guy( i can't believe i'm writing WAS and not IS. and i feel helpless.) which is rare. very rare. he was in my class for 2 years plus we had a few common friends so i did interact with him, not a lot, but not too less either. he was friends with karn, who i was friends with, so we hung out together and it was great coz he was so funny. I even found a few pictures with him where we're making weird faces and generally acting silly.

This is so unreal. I can barely imagine what his lil sister or his mom must be going through right now. And there is nothing one can do to ease the pain. All the soothing words might last a month but they have their lifetimes ahead of them. without a brother. without a son. FUCK. FUCK !

I don't even know what to write or where to take this because it is futile and nothing will bring him back. 

Don't cry that its over, smile that it happened.

right.

whatever.

dh

p.s. i was talking to karn n he told me about his friend from college who was involved in a similar car crash with his family a month back and everyone but the little sister died then and there. and how his(karn's) second cousin killed herself 2 weeks ago. what the fuck is going on. what the fuck.

p.p.s. this after i saw a walk to remember 2 days back. the faith wavers.