Death

i was in c.p. on the 31st circa 8pm, about to leave for home to go back and change and leave again for the night. Namn called up and i assumed i might've crossed him on my way back to the inner circle and so he wants to say hey. So he asks me where i am and once i tell him about my whereabouts, he goes "I'm presuming you haven't heard what has happened." And i'm thinking fuck no. not another bomb in the city. (side note-the security was beefed up around c.p.and when i say beefed up i mean rapid action force cars, about 50 cops with guns moving around the inner circle etc plus the entry of cars banned after 7 and loads of security checks. but then again, this is standard practice in major markets on new year's eve and other such important days so i wasn't perturbed) Turns out it was worse. tarus had been in a fatal car accident in pune 2 hours back. tyre burst, pune expressway, car turns turtle,3 people dead on the spot. including tarus.numb.

the thing is, you read news items like these often but not for a moment do you think something like this could happen to someone you know, much rarely someone you know and like. aah, kids these days. high speed. too bad. next page.

These things never happen to people around us right. right?

Tarus was a genuinely cool guy( i can't believe i'm writing WAS and not IS. and i feel helpless.) which is rare. very rare. he was in my class for 2 years plus we had a few common friends so i did interact with him, not a lot, but not too less either. he was friends with karn, who i was friends with, so we hung out together and it was great coz he was so funny. I even found a few pictures with him where we're making weird faces and generally acting silly.

This is so unreal. I can barely imagine what his lil sister or his mom must be going through right now. And there is nothing one can do to ease the pain. All the soothing words might last a month but they have their lifetimes ahead of them. without a brother. without a son. FUCK. FUCK !

I don't even know what to write or where to take this because it is futile and nothing will bring him back. 

Don't cry that its over, smile that it happened.

right.

whatever.

dh

p.s. i was talking to karn n he told me about his friend from college who was involved in a similar car crash with his family a month back and everyone but the little sister died then and there. and how his(karn's) second cousin killed herself 2 weeks ago. what the fuck is going on. what the fuck.

p.p.s. this after i saw a walk to remember 2 days back. the faith wavers.